Not to keep reminding you of a bad thing but last year my friend killed himself and I kept wondering whether I could have done something since this one time he told me this story about how he almost killed himself and I was in complete shock and kind of laughed at it like he was joking but I keep wondering if I had been more like dude wtf what's up if he would be here today. You can't blame yourself because after a year and3 months it still doesn't help. If he thought that he was to drunk to drive he would have kept calling other people to help him out.